Sharon Stone is opening up like never before in her new book, The Beauty of Living Twice. In the powerfully candid memoir, the 63-year-old actress recounts some very painful stories from both her personal and professional life.

Stone does not shy away from openly addressing the physically abuse she says she endured as a child, her medical issues and the harassment she faced in her decades-long career. In addition to talking about her stroke, Stone claims that a doctor performed a medical procedure on her without her knowledge. As for the iconic Basic Instinct scene, Stone shares why she felt misled when it came time to film the erotic moment. Stone also discusses being a mom to Roan, 20, Laird, 15, and Quinn, 14, and admits that temporarily losing custody of her oldest child left her broken.

Here’s a look at some of the biggest revelations that Stone shares about her life in The Beauty of Living Twice.

She allegedly suffered abuse as a child

From the time she began grade school to the time she was 14, Stone claims she was physically abused by her father, Joseph Stone, who died in 2009.

She alleges that her father would “yank me down with him or throw me down in front of him.” Other times, she claims, “I was dragged through the kitchen to the basement to get the crap strapped out of me with a belt.”

“It continued until I was so sure I didn’t do what I was being punished for that I lost all fear, all concern — in fact, all feeling. I simply saw my father as weak,” she writes. “He yelled for me at the bottom of the stairs to come down.”

“I walked up to him and said, ‘What’s the matter — do you need to hit me some more to feel like a man?’ I was 14. He started to cry. I told him I didn’t love him. That I had never loved him. That I would never love him. I was so cold, so still,” Stone continues. “He was so heartbroken. He never hit any one of us again. I was free. From them both. From then on, I was my own guide.”